well dad, ive spent all day burying my head in the sand like i do best. But i couldnt let this day pass without saying something. I remember our phonecall of today like it was yesterday, it broke my heart into a million pieces. You were so brave, i dont know how you did it. There are so many things i wish i had said to you now, but i was too scared of admitting the truth, that you would be gone from my sight. I hope you know that you are so special and that you made my life so happy. Your kind words your silly jokes and your cuddles that made me feel so safe. Even when bad things happened, one of your cuddles always made me feel ok. I love you lots and miss you every minute, every day.xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx