I watched a film the other night, nothing exciting but in that film the girls dad came over to her, put his arm around her and gave her a squeeze. That squeeze that only a dad can do. I remember that squeeze from you like it was yesterday. It made me cry and you know as well as anyone how hard that is for me to do. I would do anything to have that squeeze from you now. The one that said that you were always there for me, so proud of me and that made me feel so safe. I feel like im going a little crazy, i talk to you during the days, it makes it easier somehow. The trouble is, that someone like you, so amazing and kind as you cant just be forgetten. Me and Hay cant move on, because there is such a massive gap that you have left, and well.. no matter how hard we or anyone tries, it cant be filled, not by anyone apart from you, our beautiful dad. I love you lots and lots. Lau xxxxxxxxxx