im sorry i havent been on here for so long dad. its so hard. it was Rubys 4th birthday party today and i so wish you could have been there. Your "daddy disco" was the best and she would have loved it. I miss you so much dad. I find it so hard to get through each day without you. If i could have just one more hug i would give anything. I feel so lost without you. Time is no healer, it only makes me miss you more. I love you so much, your little Lau xxxxxxxxxxxxxx