How is it possible that its been a year since we lost you. Yesterday was such a strange anniversary. 1 year since your suffering ended. That morning i was so relieved for you, know im so sad that we had to let you go, i wish i could have that last day with you again so i could say all of the things i wanted to. But i just sat there in silence too frightened to say anything for fear of upsetting you or having to admit that you were going to be gone from my sight. I am working hard to have the strength to admit that your not coming back, but thats just too hard right now. I need a cuddle from you more than i need anything. You were such a amazing man, so kind and caring and funny! I am so happy that you are my dad and i love and miss you always xxxxxxxxxxxx